scared to death

I haven't had a paying job since the end of June. I had quite a bit of money saved once but I've been spending it for the last 10 years. I've traveled all over the world, India, Turkey, France, Thailand, and China to name a few of the countries I've visited (or lived in). So I decided it was time to come back to California and replenish my savings.

Wow! What a big surprise. Unemployment is up, investing is a terror, there's no money 'floating' around waiting to land on some deserving volunteer/humanitarian teacher. So I have been applying for dozens of jobs. To tell you the truth, some of them I would never want.

One of the jobs I applied for, but didn't really want, was teaching science in a 7th grade science class. The teacher who started at the beginning of the year had just graduated from college and didn't expect the students to be so difficult. So, yeah, I am going to come in on a white horse and save the day! or not.

I'm waiting, and hopeful that I will get a job teaching for a faith-based education program. I've had an interview, I did a couple demonstration lectures, and they asked for my references to respond to specific questions. That's a good sign! But it doesn't mean it will happen quickly and it could be a couple months before I start working there.

While I wait, I've been thinking that there are other people who are looking for jobs, and not finding it easy to wait, and feeling a little stressed out about it. Maybe running short on cash as well. So, here's to you! You're not alone. I'm feeling those feelings and thinking about what the worst case, as well as the best case scenarios are, just like you.

If you should happen to read this and want to respond, feel free. I'm thinking there are a lot of people who are scared to death that they won't find another job, or won't find it soon, or won't find it soon enough, and might need to vent a bit. I'll read and probably reply if it seems you'd like a reply.